Thursday, October 4, 2007

Shhhh....

I wonder what it would be like to go an entire day without talking to someone. I think I'm envisioning a day at home ALONE. Although, these days it's possible to go shopping and never speak to a soul since salespeople and cashiers can be anti-social occasionally.

Yesterday was so quiet and rainy. I had to work, but the day was different. I sat through a 3 hr. class on a major brand of skin care. It wasn't boring, but I was sleepy and it was rainy and I hadn't had enough coffee. Then I did 2 haircuts, barely speaking to the poor clients, I felt so laid back and sleepy. Then I went to lunch with a friend. At least we both were subdued. I'd hate to be a wet blanket if someone were in high spirits. After a pleasant lunch, I went back for a few hours of "scizzing". I hardly felt I worked.

That feeling of being subdued and quiet has carried over into today. I even feel a bit withdrawn. Hubby and I had an emotional talk last night and while no one is angry, I find myself tentative. Wanting to go inside myself and be very small. Leave the barest imprint today as I live this day. A bit improbable as I have a full schedule today and really need to gear up to be "all things to all people". But... I have this moment, this moment where I am alone with my thoughts. My quiet place.

2 comments:

HeyJules said...

Try a retreat day. I go to my church one day a year and use one of our prayer rooms to sit back with nothing but the Bible, a book, and a pen and paper and just SIT. Okay, sometimes I nap, too!

It's wonderful. Try it.

InTheFastLane said...

I have days like that too. Just no more talking...