Going a Little Deeper

This is one of those rare moments when all seems right with the world.

I'm sure a lot of that has to do with my attitude. Why is it some days you feel on even keel and other days you can't stand yourself?

I feel that I'm back on track. I went to exercise this morning. Even though my body tried to talk me out of it. And I was happy to be there! And thinking about my little morning routine just cheered me up even more.

I spent a glorious weekend at home. I only left the house to get a newspaper Sunday morning. I would just stare at my little girl wondering at the joy she gives me. I enjoyed companionable time with my husband. It was such an enjoyable time that I missed them when I went to work on Monday.

I know that things can't always be hunkey-dorey. When my hubby and I disagree, it's a time for building our relationship. It stretches it-like a muscle. It hurts while you do it, but it makes the relationship stronger in the long run. We've had a rough five years as we've adjusted to being parents and our relationship with each other has had to change and grow into a new shape, but it's nice to begin reaping the benefits of our hard work.

It's not easy for a first-born to be married to a first-born. Now, with a first-born child thrown into the mix, you can imagine the sparks that fly from all three of us independent, strong-willed individuals!

You know what I've learned in these recent years? I've had to learn to trust my husband's love for me. I most certainly do not always agree with him, but I trust that he has what is best for our family uppermost in his mind and (usually after giving him a piece of my mind) I trust him to take care of his family.

What? I think I could do a better job? God gave him that responsibility. You think I want to pull that onto myself?

Nosiree.